Dear Daddy
You have been there for me since I was little, ok you were not there from the start, but you are still the man I love and the man I call Daddy.
I listen to you crying in your sleep and want to give you a huge Puddlie hug, to stop the nightmares and take all the images and horror movies out of your head. I know that you have been poorly since the minute I met you and that me and Joe do not know who the real Daddy was, but we would like to meet him and I know Mummy would too but it isn’t going to happen.
Can you remember when we went crabbing and you showed me how to catch crabs, you walked along the sea front holding Mummys hand and smiles when Joe and me lifted crab after crab, you thought it was great when the dogs dragged us into the sea and we both came back soaked. Think of nice thoughts and who knows these things may sneak into the dreams now and then. Think of riding Honey when she backed you into the hedge in the fog or the day she nearly jumped the fence with us all stood there watching.
I know that you are poorly, your body hurts and you are always in pain. I also know that you are afraid to sleep because you know the nightmares are never far away. I wish I could make things better Daddy, make you well. I know that you have been in a really bad place for a long time, but think of all the horse shows, the new farm and good things. This time next year we will all be happy, I promise.
You get so angry and upset with things especially at the minute and you scare me, I know that you would never hit any of us, but seeing you sooo sad hurts us too. I made you mad tonight and you escaped by going to bed. I did not mean to make you mad, I was trying to help and just made things worse. Sorry.
I also know that you never read my blog so you wont know that we have bought you something cool for Easter, just hope you like it.
Night , night Daddy I wish you lots of sweet dreams
Love you lots and lots
Pud x x x x xx xx x x x
2 Comments
Vanessa
3/30/2013 02:39:05 am
Hi
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Niamh
3/30/2013 06:55:39 pm
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