Feeling really upset and angry at the minute, something was said to me yesterday that hurt more than you could imagine. I was told that I do ... all; really do I, tell me what everyone else does then. I dont have to be bribed to help I do it because I love my friends and family and want to. You are cruel and really dont know me. I try to help around the house, with the charity and do loads of things for other people and yet I do ........ all. You always laugh at me and say I have OCD, or I have my cleaning head on, yet you can say that about me.
Mum and I chatted today, horses being the subject and it wasnt good. Think I will give up completely and then everything in the world will be better, and I cannot be blamed for everything that goes wrong. Wish I could sleep on it but cant even sleep. Once again it is me giving things up to help others yet other people are not being asked to do the same.
Well I have said my bit now, no point in carrying on or I shall end up with a wet ipad and the need for a box of tissues. Maybe it is because I am not feeling well that comments like that are being heard rather than ignored like usual, of well, enough.
Change of subject before I say too much
Dad in bad place not spoken to me in days but hey his choice, feel like we moving apart but I guess that the story of my life with all the men I have ever known.
Some are better off out of my life, mainly boyfriends who just dont get me me or people who are bullies and hurtful and who will regret pushing me out of their lives one day when they are sad and lonely old men. There are a few though that I thought I could count on, and I wanted to have in my life forever; Daddy is one of those, but I guess that I have made him angry and push me away.
Niamh x x x
Mum and I chatted today, horses being the subject and it wasnt good. Think I will give up completely and then everything in the world will be better, and I cannot be blamed for everything that goes wrong. Wish I could sleep on it but cant even sleep. Once again it is me giving things up to help others yet other people are not being asked to do the same.
Well I have said my bit now, no point in carrying on or I shall end up with a wet ipad and the need for a box of tissues. Maybe it is because I am not feeling well that comments like that are being heard rather than ignored like usual, of well, enough.
Change of subject before I say too much
Dad in bad place not spoken to me in days but hey his choice, feel like we moving apart but I guess that the story of my life with all the men I have ever known.
Some are better off out of my life, mainly boyfriends who just dont get me me or people who are bullies and hurtful and who will regret pushing me out of their lives one day when they are sad and lonely old men. There are a few though that I thought I could count on, and I wanted to have in my life forever; Daddy is one of those, but I guess that I have made him angry and push me away.
Niamh x x x