Dear Auntie Doris
I know that you are with me and you listen when I talk, I just wish you were still here so I could here your answers and know that you will protect me. I miss you loads
Anyway, my exams are now over not sure how I have done. Think I have failed one or two but there is soooo much on my mind and I really don’t know where to start. I soooooooooooo want daddy to be proud of me and live up to Grace and Joe, they have always been mega clever and even now Joe sometimes talks to me like I am three. I'm not thick I just struggle to get things at times.
Daddy has been in hospital with severe pancreatitis and two hernias and waiting to see the specialist at the hospital about his gall bladder. He is home at the minute but every step he is holding his tummy and the pain in his eyes is terrible. He reminds me of when mum first had her prolapsed thingy, she was always holding herself and joked that she thought her guts were trying to escape.
We can’t even give him a huggle as his tummy so bad.
As you know we have found the perfect house, mum is doing everything to raise the funding and it is making her ill and tired. We all know that it will be worth it but she never smiles anymore
There is a creepy woman who has her horse at our yard, one minute she is friendly the next minute she sends mum and dad really horrible texts . Mum says that she must be ill to behave that way and to ignore her but i can’t.
We went a couple of weeks ago and she started staring at us and acting weird, the next day we find a huge lump of rusty metal in my horse feed. She started sending mum threats and saying mum had caused trouble with the farrier, who is our friend and who asked her to book her horse in the same day as ours to cover his petrol costs.
Things got soooooo bad mum and dad had to report her to the police but that isn’t it. I know they are both worried that she will hurt our horses and so am I. I am meant to be going away this weekend but what if she hurts them, or poisons them, who will be there.
Mum and Dad both have health problems mum suffers with depression and obviously so does dad, so how can i explain to them that I am scared. I am struggling to sleep at night because i am afraid of what she may do. Even if she doesn’t hurt the horses she scares me enough that I don’t want to go to the yard anymore. She may attack me or mum I don’t know. She swears rants and raves then follows you she is creepy .
We found white powder sprinkled on the horse feed, who or why would someone do that unless they mean harm. Mum threw the food away. The RSPCA said it would be impossible to prove who did it but there are three key holders. Big Boy died in the middle of a dark field, she is always in her cowboy high heels and never got them mucky but knew he was dead on a winter night. We were there at three that afternoon. I am soooooo scared. The lady’s horse down the road died a few weeks ago and she was convinced it had been given something as it foamed up at the mouth and dropped dead.
I haven’t been able to concentrate on my exams, I don’t want to go to the horses in case something has happened and I cant let mum and dad worry anymore. I am sleeping with mums dressing gown because it makes me feel safe. I am the carer for mum and dad so how can i tell them i feel sick to my stomach, my head hurts, i am tired but cant sleep . I have to look after them and I know they say i don’t but I do. I love them tonnes and
You may think I am making up excuses for feeling like I have messed up my exams and I am not. This woman said I spat at her today and then told me to watch my back. I have never done anything to her nor has Mum or Dad, why be so cruel.
Please Auntie Doris let us win the lottery and move so we can all be safe and the charity can be everything mum wants it to be. Say goodnight to my nan and grumpy granddad and a hello to uncle Chris, help me I feel so so scared and so ill. I just wish it would all stop.
Love and huggles
Nemo
I know that you are with me and you listen when I talk, I just wish you were still here so I could here your answers and know that you will protect me. I miss you loads
Anyway, my exams are now over not sure how I have done. Think I have failed one or two but there is soooo much on my mind and I really don’t know where to start. I soooooooooooo want daddy to be proud of me and live up to Grace and Joe, they have always been mega clever and even now Joe sometimes talks to me like I am three. I'm not thick I just struggle to get things at times.
Daddy has been in hospital with severe pancreatitis and two hernias and waiting to see the specialist at the hospital about his gall bladder. He is home at the minute but every step he is holding his tummy and the pain in his eyes is terrible. He reminds me of when mum first had her prolapsed thingy, she was always holding herself and joked that she thought her guts were trying to escape.
We can’t even give him a huggle as his tummy so bad.
As you know we have found the perfect house, mum is doing everything to raise the funding and it is making her ill and tired. We all know that it will be worth it but she never smiles anymore
There is a creepy woman who has her horse at our yard, one minute she is friendly the next minute she sends mum and dad really horrible texts . Mum says that she must be ill to behave that way and to ignore her but i can’t.
We went a couple of weeks ago and she started staring at us and acting weird, the next day we find a huge lump of rusty metal in my horse feed. She started sending mum threats and saying mum had caused trouble with the farrier, who is our friend and who asked her to book her horse in the same day as ours to cover his petrol costs.
Things got soooooo bad mum and dad had to report her to the police but that isn’t it. I know they are both worried that she will hurt our horses and so am I. I am meant to be going away this weekend but what if she hurts them, or poisons them, who will be there.
Mum and Dad both have health problems mum suffers with depression and obviously so does dad, so how can i explain to them that I am scared. I am struggling to sleep at night because i am afraid of what she may do. Even if she doesn’t hurt the horses she scares me enough that I don’t want to go to the yard anymore. She may attack me or mum I don’t know. She swears rants and raves then follows you she is creepy .
We found white powder sprinkled on the horse feed, who or why would someone do that unless they mean harm. Mum threw the food away. The RSPCA said it would be impossible to prove who did it but there are three key holders. Big Boy died in the middle of a dark field, she is always in her cowboy high heels and never got them mucky but knew he was dead on a winter night. We were there at three that afternoon. I am soooooo scared. The lady’s horse down the road died a few weeks ago and she was convinced it had been given something as it foamed up at the mouth and dropped dead.
I haven’t been able to concentrate on my exams, I don’t want to go to the horses in case something has happened and I cant let mum and dad worry anymore. I am sleeping with mums dressing gown because it makes me feel safe. I am the carer for mum and dad so how can i tell them i feel sick to my stomach, my head hurts, i am tired but cant sleep . I have to look after them and I know they say i don’t but I do. I love them tonnes and
You may think I am making up excuses for feeling like I have messed up my exams and I am not. This woman said I spat at her today and then told me to watch my back. I have never done anything to her nor has Mum or Dad, why be so cruel.
Please Auntie Doris let us win the lottery and move so we can all be safe and the charity can be everything mum wants it to be. Say goodnight to my nan and grumpy granddad and a hello to uncle Chris, help me I feel so so scared and so ill. I just wish it would all stop.
Love and huggles
Nemo