Haven't written my blog for a bit. Things been odd here and not been too sure where to start. Dad hates winter sooooooo much and his mood is always really low. Guess I afraid last winter will happen all over again and it really really scares me. Not sure that me or mum could go through feeling as hated by someone we live and trust. Not again anyway. Maybe that the reason I haven't written my blog or maybe it something else I just don't know
Dad has loads of issues he needs to sort out and keeps saying he will do it but I think he is a little afraid of what will happen if and when he ever starts to sort them. Scary stuff and not nice problems to face. Big huggles daddy. I think one reason I not been in touch is I am angry hurt and confused and don't want to sound really negative so have avoided writing down my thoughts in case I say the wrong thing Daddy had major surgery on Friday 13th December in Leicester. Mum stayed with him and everything went ok or seems to have done..... Great I should be laughing but I not; I am I think the only person to contact mum to see how he was getting on, when he would be home and stuff yet I know his kids will have known he been ill.
Some people are just bloody selfish. They take great delight in false promises and then just lie twisting the knife in the other persons heart. Bet when we move we will be expected to be one big happy family and dad is soft enough to forgive all. Which scares me even more
Last year made me realise so many things most of which were not to nice. If anything happened to dad, mum and me are homeless for one. Mum works really hard as dads carer and running the charity and no one notices Silly things that I can't forget and that scare me to the point of nightmares.
Daddy says if anything happens to him he wants this and that for his funeral but mum and me are not family not really family do who is going to listen. If mum and dad were a couple or married we would be safe and have a say in what happens but they not. I know how hurt mum was last year and I am terrified she will not be able to cope if things go the same way. Maybe I am being a wimp but I hate seeing people sad Anyway. Let's move on Christmas went ok no fights in fact daddy made a real effort to try and I think we all had a good time.
I had been to Alison's up till Christmas Eve and was there when dad's colt Lancaster died. Alison got upset Michael got upset and mum and dad got upset at home. I think u did well and coped although it was really sad I even helped move him. Mum bought a small tree from Argos complete with lights that was terrible so we all took the Mickey and said it was a hedge.
New year was quiet too we were all home Fireworks going off terrified dad but that was sort if expected. Effie jumped the baby gate and hid under my quilt I was sort if expecting dad to do the same but don't think he could have cleared the baby gate. I only hope 2014 the year of the horse is a good one.
Dad has loads of issues he needs to sort out and keeps saying he will do it but I think he is a little afraid of what will happen if and when he ever starts to sort them. Scary stuff and not nice problems to face. Big huggles daddy. I think one reason I not been in touch is I am angry hurt and confused and don't want to sound really negative so have avoided writing down my thoughts in case I say the wrong thing Daddy had major surgery on Friday 13th December in Leicester. Mum stayed with him and everything went ok or seems to have done..... Great I should be laughing but I not; I am I think the only person to contact mum to see how he was getting on, when he would be home and stuff yet I know his kids will have known he been ill.
Some people are just bloody selfish. They take great delight in false promises and then just lie twisting the knife in the other persons heart. Bet when we move we will be expected to be one big happy family and dad is soft enough to forgive all. Which scares me even more
Last year made me realise so many things most of which were not to nice. If anything happened to dad, mum and me are homeless for one. Mum works really hard as dads carer and running the charity and no one notices Silly things that I can't forget and that scare me to the point of nightmares.
Daddy says if anything happens to him he wants this and that for his funeral but mum and me are not family not really family do who is going to listen. If mum and dad were a couple or married we would be safe and have a say in what happens but they not. I know how hurt mum was last year and I am terrified she will not be able to cope if things go the same way. Maybe I am being a wimp but I hate seeing people sad Anyway. Let's move on Christmas went ok no fights in fact daddy made a real effort to try and I think we all had a good time.
I had been to Alison's up till Christmas Eve and was there when dad's colt Lancaster died. Alison got upset Michael got upset and mum and dad got upset at home. I think u did well and coped although it was really sad I even helped move him. Mum bought a small tree from Argos complete with lights that was terrible so we all took the Mickey and said it was a hedge.
New year was quiet too we were all home Fireworks going off terrified dad but that was sort if expected. Effie jumped the baby gate and hid under my quilt I was sort if expecting dad to do the same but don't think he could have cleared the baby gate. I only hope 2014 the year of the horse is a good one.