Bathed my puppy Sunday night before I finally got to sleep and clipped her claws. She then snuggled up in her tiggre towel. Couldn't sleep till about half one. Urrrhhhh!
Dont know what the matter is with me at the minute. Can't sleep when I go to bed then wake up at silly o'clock and can't go back to sleep. AAAAAAARRRRRHHHHHHH!
Not spending much time down stairs at the minute. With Daddy being so low he is quiet and it doesn't feel the same. Not sure if he is angry with me and Mum but if I stay out the way I can't get into trouble and if they are angry with each other I don't have to hear the shouting. Mum keeps telling me that they are fine and Daddy just going through a bad patch. Maybe , but I have never seen him so down for sooooo long.
Monday was an ok day at school. Mum met me and we went straight to the yard. Changed the rugs on the boys .... Dan cleared off the minute we took his rug off and we could not catch him for nearly an hour.
Another lightbulb moment. Mum and I were walking around with his head collar. When it dawned on us he thought he would have to do some work and we put the head collar down we caught him straight away. Danhates work.
Worried about my best friend at school too, she has been really quite. Hope she isn't ill and if she is, hope she is better so we can still go out on my birthday.
Things are a bit messed up at school and we are now sorting out our exams; because our science teacher left last term we haven't managed to get a replacement so all not wonderful there. I know that Debbie will sort things out but it is making Mum panic.
I am really worried that Daddy won't be proud of me when I get lower grades than Joe. I am sort of waiting for "Joe got 7 A*'s and you only got 5 c's or something". Mum said that Daddy would never say that and I guess deep down I know it too, but just lately I'm not sure. I do work hard and try to learn but I'm not as clever as Joe but I would destroy him at sports. Lol. Mum always said that as long as I try my hardest nothing else matters but I want to do well. I hate exams and freeze the minute I walk into one. This year is going to be a nightmare.
Daddy taking me to the army careers office this week I think so that will be good if he can leave the house to take me..
He is still not well and has a couple of hospital and doctors appointments this week and Mum is also at the doctors, they are both falling to bits . Hope they sort Dad's meds out soon.
Think I need to start swimming and getting fit again. Need to think about my beach body ha ha ha . Hoping the weather will get better soon too. need to start riding.
Still searching for a farm so we can move. If we move Daddy will be with other servicemen again and his horses so he will be happy. It not often that you see him smile. Please lottery let us win.
Well I have hair and make up to do so better go get ready for school and kick my dog out of bed.
Huggles
Niamh x x
Dont know what the matter is with me at the minute. Can't sleep when I go to bed then wake up at silly o'clock and can't go back to sleep. AAAAAAARRRRRHHHHHHH!
Not spending much time down stairs at the minute. With Daddy being so low he is quiet and it doesn't feel the same. Not sure if he is angry with me and Mum but if I stay out the way I can't get into trouble and if they are angry with each other I don't have to hear the shouting. Mum keeps telling me that they are fine and Daddy just going through a bad patch. Maybe , but I have never seen him so down for sooooo long.
Monday was an ok day at school. Mum met me and we went straight to the yard. Changed the rugs on the boys .... Dan cleared off the minute we took his rug off and we could not catch him for nearly an hour.
Another lightbulb moment. Mum and I were walking around with his head collar. When it dawned on us he thought he would have to do some work and we put the head collar down we caught him straight away. Danhates work.
Worried about my best friend at school too, she has been really quite. Hope she isn't ill and if she is, hope she is better so we can still go out on my birthday.
Things are a bit messed up at school and we are now sorting out our exams; because our science teacher left last term we haven't managed to get a replacement so all not wonderful there. I know that Debbie will sort things out but it is making Mum panic.
I am really worried that Daddy won't be proud of me when I get lower grades than Joe. I am sort of waiting for "Joe got 7 A*'s and you only got 5 c's or something". Mum said that Daddy would never say that and I guess deep down I know it too, but just lately I'm not sure. I do work hard and try to learn but I'm not as clever as Joe but I would destroy him at sports. Lol. Mum always said that as long as I try my hardest nothing else matters but I want to do well. I hate exams and freeze the minute I walk into one. This year is going to be a nightmare.
Daddy taking me to the army careers office this week I think so that will be good if he can leave the house to take me..
He is still not well and has a couple of hospital and doctors appointments this week and Mum is also at the doctors, they are both falling to bits . Hope they sort Dad's meds out soon.
Think I need to start swimming and getting fit again. Need to think about my beach body ha ha ha . Hoping the weather will get better soon too. need to start riding.
Still searching for a farm so we can move. If we move Daddy will be with other servicemen again and his horses so he will be happy. It not often that you see him smile. Please lottery let us win.
Well I have hair and make up to do so better go get ready for school and kick my dog out of bed.
Huggles
Niamh x x