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The shouting has stopped, now the silent treatment begins
Is this PTSD, the deadly enemy that lies within Or is it a man who wants to give up and die Who hates those around him, because they just make him cry He cannot see the misery they suffer too Feeling so helpless not knowing what to do Surrounded by people yet he feels so alone A outcast, a burden no use at all, not even at home His anger flares as his frustration kicks in He bangs his head to the wall, well that isn’t a sin Thoughts of his own death creep back into his head I have no use on this earth, I am far better dead They just do not listen, they don’t understand This shell of a person was once a proud man I am the victim, I did not ask for this The nightmares and panic are things I would not miss But you don’t understand me, or give me a chance You seem to walk past me without even a glance But there are two sides to a story and this one is my own I too am surrounded by people but feel so alone A child in your eyes, my opinions don’t matter As my life crumbles around me, the ashes just scatter I am to pick sides; no I shall stay out of sight It scares me when you argue shout and you fight It reminds me of days when a punch followed voices raised I too have nightmares of my past, my former days We do have a future as a family if you want to try I hate knowing that your upset or to see my mum cry She only tries to help you, as you are not too well And bring some light into your life of hell But you cannot see what she does is not bad You accuse her of being grumpy but she too is sad Walls have ears and voices travel around Upstairs you can hear even the quietist of sounds Your anger, your fears the hurtful things adults say May slip off your tongue and be forgotten after a day But to us children those words cut like a knife Not knowing our future, are you still part of my life PTSD you destroy the person, their families and friends The misery you cause, I wish I cure and bring it to an end N Finlay Howe 2014 |
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